Undconditional Love

While me and my girlfriend was fixing and cleaning out a particular room at their boarding house. I saw a book, it was about dealing with teenagers and some kind of parental guide scheme. So I picked it up and scan through the pages. I landed on a particular page which somewhat struck me. It was about dealing with forces of adolescence and the onset of sexuality. It was quite a sensitive matter to discuss and quite forward to put in a book. The other mentioned force was the mandate that demands that teenagers from childhood and parents. More than anything this two forces shape adolescents. So what know I want you to read is one of the story stated in the book. Which was about kids who were angels before but due to adolescence tured into "MONSTERS"


"Clarrissa was so sweet, she always used to give me these cute little cards with hearts and smiley faces on them. They would say "I love you , Mommy" She was a treasure. She really was. I used to call her "Mommy's Little Treasure". And helpful around the house? She would ask if there's anything she could do. I just dont understand what happened. She's changed. Now she abuses me. She's a monster"

Familiar?Reflect na lang tah ani mga Pipz


source: "Get out of my life" by Anthony E. Wolf, Ph.D.

"Portrait"

Look at this 2 pictures. This represents one girls happiness. Where is she happy? In the Left picture or in the Right picture?hmmm..You could clearly see she's amazingly happy in the right picture. Dont you think? Well she truly is. Lets just wish her luck and happiness with her decision. And probably she wasnt really satisfied with her life during that Left picture was taken.
What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now. We cannot change our past. We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. Sad to say love hurts. It really bothers me seeing you happy with someone aside from me. That explains everytime I look at your pictures I cry.

The "List"

10 THINGS TO MAKE A GIRL HAPPY:

1. Always make her feel special

2. Make sure to surprise her every once in a while

3. Wash the dishes for her

4. Always be on time especially when meeting her (this is where i failed) :(

5. The best way to fix a fight, is to buy her Mcfloat :)

6. Carry her like a baby

7. Buy something she wants, even if it costs you all of your money

8. Give her a dog and name it Odii :)

9. Do and carry the laundry for her

10. Lastly, hmmmmm, just love her forever or better yet for eternity

Without You

Im wondering why badluck always strucks me. Is this due to the fact I did messed up with girls before?Yes I honestly admit. I was wrong. But loving seriously wasnt the answer I guess, I think it was just a test to prove how strong I can be. The judgement I had before and the one who's making me go on each and everyday has abandoned me. Why?was I to strict?to tight?or am I not enough for her?. I've given my life my all to this wonderful thing named love but what do I get in return? heartache and pain. Sometimes I come to think why love is unfair, why it is imbalanced and why everytime I try to learn it I fail. Maybe its just not for me or maybe the one im trying to love isnt satisfied. Haiz. I was just asking for something in return, loving me and forgeting all about the past and focus on us. It didnt worked out after all. It was to hard for her to forget and love me the way she loved before. Everytime I think about the things she did to the relationships she had. I just wish I knew her first so all the love she invested didnt come to waste. She was so hurt and disgusted of what happened that it even affected her daily Online activities such as YM's status message. Compared to me, she didnt even mentioned me on those times where having conflicts. What did I get? curses, harsh words and uncivilized quotes which was directed to me. What can I do? nothing, I just put myself to sleep at least for a bit I can forget all about it. Love can be cruel and unfair for me, but one things for sure I didnt regret meeting someone as beautiful and wonderful as my "Angel". I didnt expect that it will end up like this. Depression and pain is overuling me right now. This incident is a great inspiration in writing and updating my blog. I just wish and pray for your happiness and I hope you may find the one your looking for. Much better than me for sure. I know your happy and I know you've been wanting to be free. For the last time I Love You So Much. "Mami" :(

^cX^GrlNxtDr* to caxn_gIrLNxtDr

New name, Renewed skills?Not really. Its not really my idea on changing our teams insignia. We just came up with the better and simpler name. To endorse our style of gaming, mainly simplicity and beauty in one. How long since I last posted topics bout DOTA in my blog. I just wanted you guyys to know that Ive been practicing and playing a lot of DOTA lately. This is to cover up boredom and distress and sad to say, to cover up sad LOVE matters. Dota is my place of Zen and peace, and yes I admit I do play when love strikes me hard. But enough about this topic lets focus on dota. Speaking about which another big tournament is coming and is being sponsored by Netopia gaming hub. Me and my team is having some discussions about joining the said tournament but hell, WE NEED SOME PRACTICE!. Sad to say but each of us is starting to wander all by ourselves on DOTA land. And some of my teammates decided to play all by themselves. Not again! The last time I encountered this kind of regime we ended up disbanded. :( But im trying to reunite us again and as ive said the upcoming tournament might be the click we've all been waiting for. Please pray for us. LOL. But seriously I wish my team all the luck. Sayonara

"ANGEL"

One night during the Kadayawan days here in Davao. Me and some of my newly acquired friends decided go out and have a drink. It was a typical drinking session and we've decided to do it at Torres. I was having a blast, and the tab was on my friend whom decided to treat us. My bestfriend was there along with his "uyab" Mai2x and my childhood friend was also there whom also met her longtime crush Lovelyn namely. The night was young and everybody around us was good company even though we didnt knew them at all. After a few rounds and some serious shots, a girl suddenly arrived. And to tell you she did struck me like a lightning bolt. She was dressed in black and wasnt to tall either. The first thing that came into my mind was, "Partner"?. Then i suddenly felt that i was in shortage of cigarettes which was a contemporary need for me during those times. I asked the others if their had a stick, but none of them had. Then one of my friend said that "kana si charrisse ga yosi na" which meant ("that girl she smokes"). Then she replied "wala ako yosi dito, bili ka dun" which meant(I dont have some, here's some cash go buy a pack". So i said come with me. She looked bedazzled when I said that, It was like she hadnt had any trust at all. LOL. But after a thinking or two she decided to come with me. She was like the girl in my dreams. She looked perfect. I cant explain why I got hit by this angel. I cant deny the fact that she had me gasping for her attention. I was holding my cellphone and my eyes was on her. So I pulled up and had the guts to ask her number. God did answer my prayers and she did gave it to me. I was so happy and I cant hide the smiles the time I got her number. After a while I decided to go but still even in my room I still si her beauty in the darkest corners of it. Im happy I had met her and now were going out for 4 months. to be continued.....I love you mami FOREVER

ETERNITY

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