I Hate It When You Cry

Note: Fictional Story

She was lying on her bed as if feeling lifeless. This was the first time she couldn’t bear this distance between him and her. As she hugged her pillow and wept to herself, she remembered the time they spent together a week back.
He invited her to his place where they spent three days together. They walked on beaches at night, shared intimate moments and ended up making love at the late hours. Something connected them and she loved it so much that she ached to be with him.
“Here is your ticket and call me as soon as you reach.” He instructed as she looked at him with teary eyes. They were standing at the bus station. As tears slipped from her eyes, he reached to wipe them. “I hate it when you cry…I love you sweetheart.”
His words echoed in her heart which made her cry harder as she tried to hold her painful voice inside. She was lying in her hostel room and three of her roommates were sleeping calmly. She did not want to disturb them with her sobs.
“You want me to make you smile?” He asked her as she nodded in response. He searched for something in his pocket and slipped it on her finger. “Will you marry me?”
A smile reached her face unable to hold the sudden surge of happiness that ran in her heart but nodded in refusal. He was confused as he frowned.
“How long will you love me?” I said giving him a naughty smile. “How long? Year or two…How long?”
“I will love you till my last breathe.” He said with a serious look. “I promise.”
There was something in his words and in his eyes as if he meant to keep that promise and it scared her. A sudden blast of horn made her turn as her bus was ready to leave so she embraced him with heavy heart.
“I love you.” She said as if her voice revealed how much she meant those words.
Last night he called her at three in the morning and it startled her. She was happy to hear his voice in her sleep as he kept talking to her for three hours and by that time she was wide awake. She tried to hang up and go back to sleep but he wouldn’t agree.
“Tell me you love me.” He had said that for the tenth time in between and she would obey him blowing a kiss on the cell. “Now go to sleep.”
“I don’t feel like sleeping.” He said in a tired voice. She had known him for a long time but today he was reluctant to hang up. Every time he would make an excuse and engross her in some romantic conversation as she dismissed the idea of hanging up.
“It’s almost morning!” She said checking out her watch. “Jai, I love you sweetheart and go to sleep. You have a job tomorrow.”
“I don’t want to hang up. I miss you, Preeti.” He said in a heavy voice. “I want you here by my side.”
“Jai.” She was out of words at his craziness. She realized that as the moments were passing by, his voice was growing weaker and tired.
“Jai! Are you okay?” She asked worried as she could make out he was having problem keeping up the conversation.
“Never felt better.” He said in a slow husky voice. “It’s just that I am falling asleep.”
“I think you should sleep now.” She said finally.
“I guess so…” He said with a pause. “I love you, Preeti.”
“I love you too.” She said and hung up. Something was disturbing her about Jai as she called him back but he didn’t receive. She hung up thinking that he must have fallen asleep.
She tried to sleep as her eyelids felt heavy when a sudden vibration of her cell made jump. Jai’s number made her blush as she smiled and received his call.
“Jai…Go to sleep!” She said firmly but an unrecognized voice greeted her.
“Hello…Who is this?” She asked worried.
“Who are you? How do you know Jai Mehta?” A voice asked on the other end.
“I am Preeti Khanna.” She answered as her heart raced. “I am Jai’s fiancée.”
“This is Dr. Sheharyaar Khan from Appollo Hospital and I am sorry to inform you that Jai Mehta has passed away fifteen minutes back.”
Preeti could feel her world shatter as these words hit her head like a hammer and she could feel her body grow numb. Dr. Sheharyaar Khan explained to her about Jai’s accident which took place two days back and he had a severe brain hemorrhage.
The words were a blur for her as her brain lost all capability of understanding. Jai’s handsome face and innocent smile floated in her mind and a sudden realization of losing him dawned on her.
Her friends were by her side when she revealed to them about Jai’s death. Preeti couldn’t believe that Jai is no more as she grabbed her cell phone to dial his number when a message symbol blinked on her mobile.
‘Preeti…I am sorry to leave u but I tried to keep my promise that I will love you till my last breath. I have loved u from bottom of my heart, ur smile brings solace to my soul and I can never bear to see u crying. Baby, even if I am not there…remember that I love you and will protect you. I will miss you….Goodbye.’
She has read his message again and again sobbing in the dark. She tried to dial his mobile number which was ‘switched off’.
Jai was gone and she knew he would never return to her. His memories assaulted her mind as she lay awake but by dawn she drifted off to a restless sleep. At morning when she checked her cell phone, there was a message for her.
“I hate it when you cry…I love you.”

Dota 6.59d Released!

Dota 6.59d Changelog:

* Fixed some item exploits
* Fixed a rare memory related bug
* Temporarily changed switch voting system. It requires 100% of the vote for now. There will be a better -switch implementation in the next version or two
* Fixed a few other misc bug/exploits

Download it here: "Dota 6.59d Download"


Minor Changes but stay tuned for the next version namely 6.60, many say there will be new heroes, new items. Cant wait to get my hands on that. GG WA!

Undconditional Love

While me and my girlfriend was fixing and cleaning out a particular room at their boarding house. I saw a book, it was about dealing with teenagers and some kind of parental guide scheme. So I picked it up and scan through the pages. I landed on a particular page which somewhat struck me. It was about dealing with forces of adolescence and the onset of sexuality. It was quite a sensitive matter to discuss and quite forward to put in a book. The other mentioned force was the mandate that demands that teenagers from childhood and parents. More than anything this two forces shape adolescents. So what know I want you to read is one of the story stated in the book. Which was about kids who were angels before but due to adolescence tured into "MONSTERS"


"Clarrissa was so sweet, she always used to give me these cute little cards with hearts and smiley faces on them. They would say "I love you , Mommy" She was a treasure. She really was. I used to call her "Mommy's Little Treasure". And helpful around the house? She would ask if there's anything she could do. I just dont understand what happened. She's changed. Now she abuses me. She's a monster"

Familiar?Reflect na lang tah ani mga Pipz


source: "Get out of my life" by Anthony E. Wolf, Ph.D.

"Portrait"

Look at this 2 pictures. This represents one girls happiness. Where is she happy? In the Left picture or in the Right picture?hmmm..You could clearly see she's amazingly happy in the right picture. Dont you think? Well she truly is. Lets just wish her luck and happiness with her decision. And probably she wasnt really satisfied with her life during that Left picture was taken.
What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now. We cannot change our past. We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. Sad to say love hurts. It really bothers me seeing you happy with someone aside from me. That explains everytime I look at your pictures I cry.

The "List"

10 THINGS TO MAKE A GIRL HAPPY:

1. Always make her feel special

2. Make sure to surprise her every once in a while

3. Wash the dishes for her

4. Always be on time especially when meeting her (this is where i failed) :(

5. The best way to fix a fight, is to buy her Mcfloat :)

6. Carry her like a baby

7. Buy something she wants, even if it costs you all of your money

8. Give her a dog and name it Odii :)

9. Do and carry the laundry for her

10. Lastly, hmmmmm, just love her forever or better yet for eternity

Without You

Im wondering why badluck always strucks me. Is this due to the fact I did messed up with girls before?Yes I honestly admit. I was wrong. But loving seriously wasnt the answer I guess, I think it was just a test to prove how strong I can be. The judgement I had before and the one who's making me go on each and everyday has abandoned me. Why?was I to strict?to tight?or am I not enough for her?. I've given my life my all to this wonderful thing named love but what do I get in return? heartache and pain. Sometimes I come to think why love is unfair, why it is imbalanced and why everytime I try to learn it I fail. Maybe its just not for me or maybe the one im trying to love isnt satisfied. Haiz. I was just asking for something in return, loving me and forgeting all about the past and focus on us. It didnt worked out after all. It was to hard for her to forget and love me the way she loved before. Everytime I think about the things she did to the relationships she had. I just wish I knew her first so all the love she invested didnt come to waste. She was so hurt and disgusted of what happened that it even affected her daily Online activities such as YM's status message. Compared to me, she didnt even mentioned me on those times where having conflicts. What did I get? curses, harsh words and uncivilized quotes which was directed to me. What can I do? nothing, I just put myself to sleep at least for a bit I can forget all about it. Love can be cruel and unfair for me, but one things for sure I didnt regret meeting someone as beautiful and wonderful as my "Angel". I didnt expect that it will end up like this. Depression and pain is overuling me right now. This incident is a great inspiration in writing and updating my blog. I just wish and pray for your happiness and I hope you may find the one your looking for. Much better than me for sure. I know your happy and I know you've been wanting to be free. For the last time I Love You So Much. "Mami" :(

^cX^GrlNxtDr* to caxn_gIrLNxtDr

New name, Renewed skills?Not really. Its not really my idea on changing our teams insignia. We just came up with the better and simpler name. To endorse our style of gaming, mainly simplicity and beauty in one. How long since I last posted topics bout DOTA in my blog. I just wanted you guyys to know that Ive been practicing and playing a lot of DOTA lately. This is to cover up boredom and distress and sad to say, to cover up sad LOVE matters. Dota is my place of Zen and peace, and yes I admit I do play when love strikes me hard. But enough about this topic lets focus on dota. Speaking about which another big tournament is coming and is being sponsored by Netopia gaming hub. Me and my team is having some discussions about joining the said tournament but hell, WE NEED SOME PRACTICE!. Sad to say but each of us is starting to wander all by ourselves on DOTA land. And some of my teammates decided to play all by themselves. Not again! The last time I encountered this kind of regime we ended up disbanded. :( But im trying to reunite us again and as ive said the upcoming tournament might be the click we've all been waiting for. Please pray for us. LOL. But seriously I wish my team all the luck. Sayonara